Neither created nor destroyed

Getting closer. Something that should be thrown away, its getting closer now. Why? because there was plenty time to be wasted. As we know, every-on-of-us, has our nightmare and terrible-worrying. I felt, a couple weeks ago, something that worrying me so much has appear again, it was an expertise. I feel i don't have any expertise now. But, it was okay, it's just about the 'time-zone'. Shadow will always chase us, and we can't deny it unless there was no light source or the light is perfectly perpendicular to us, from above. I want to say that, everyone has their own problem that always chase us like the shadow, say 'shadow of me'. If we think too much about it, we will afraid because the shadow will never left us. But, if we don't concern it too much, maybe we will forget about the appearance of our shadow, but remember, it isn't disappear. On the other hand, if we face it properly, it would be gone. We getting closer to the light source, the sha...

Today, suddenly I want to write about my experience to pass LPDP scholarship stage. I always feel inferior into myself, because I often met someone with outstanding level of their ability. However, there was one day, when I went back info my undergraduate campus, I met my former supervisor. I told him about my experience to be master student and shortly, I explain to him that I always being shy, feel inferior and other negative thinking because I ever met great people. He just ask me, ‘are you not special? Have you ever look at yourself, have you ever felt success? Why you don’t proud about what you have achieved? Strange’. It stabbed me so hard and He was right. So, I consider to write my story about LPDP because it’s one of my barrier, I always won’t to be labeled as an awardee because I don’t look like an awardee, I mean, I have no special ability compared to another awardee, but now, I understand that everyone has their weakness and neither to me. I should break this barrier a...

“Today, I faced a hard problem. I need something that I don’t have yet, I really need it because I already set my goal and the only way to pursue that is having ‘it’. It was money” Money. I may translate money as something to be converted into something new thing or new services. If we want to use a toilet in public place, we need to pay. If we want to eat, we have to pay for goods, and so on. Recently, money, in my opinion, is a something that should be belonged. It has governing the human being life. Every single thing is money. In advance, even, the bureaucracy/government was able to be controlled under the money superiority. Because of that, we already knew that corruption was widely spreading in the whole world, it just because to obtain a money. Let say, if we have a money, we can buy anything, we can control everything and we are able to make the world obey us. What a crazy thing. To make it balance, on the other hand, if we use the money wisely, we are able to help other, ...

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