At the first sight (1)

During the semester break, now I am smiling in front of my computer and at the same time, the coffee already accompanying until now. I started to write the love story because it was a story that i think should be written in. Let me introduce myself, my name is Ali. Now, I am still pursuing my doctoral degree from one of university in Germany. I have a complicate love story but it was amazing, so that I should write it.

This noon, I met my close friend, they were my classmate during high school, Rahma and Fauzan. We shared our stories and the conversation has conical into, we should write our story. So, when i came back into my house, grab my little hero and hug my lovely Angel and started to imagine, what kind of story should I write.

It was, almost 10 years ago, when this story began.

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My first day

"I never want to study into this school" I am started to mumble this morning. To be honest, i never want to study in this national highschool. However, because of my stupidity, i can't reach the best grade and jumped into this school.

" So today, maybe it's still an introduction section, it is not good"

I talk to myself while I drove on the way. Sadly, I forgot the way to reach my school, I am lost and late. I was punished because of my trouble. I don't know about introduction section because i never wanted to and don't hear anything. To overcome my madness, i started to introduce myself into someone and began to connect the friendship

So, i made a lot of friend and changing my perception that this school wasn't too bad. On the other hand, I realize that school wasn't totally bad when I admire someone at the my first sight. I saw a cute girl with a tiny face and strange voice. It was caught my attention and when i knew a little by little about her, I started to admire her. But, I don't know who is she because i don't pay attention when introduction section.

Day by day passed by and my curiosity about her has rapidly increasing. I cannot hold my feel because I want to know her BUT I was afraid to approach her. I declared that school wasn't bad after all. I pray to my God. "Oh Lord, Please give me a chance to talk with her". I believe my pray will be granted, I am sure.

This day, when we study and every student separated into several team, I was very happy because my team was next to her, It's mean I was able to sit close to her. And, this time, my pray was granted. There was a moment when my friend make a joke of me because of my strange voice, and suddenly the other friend start join him to mock me. I almost angry, but I suddenly muffling my mad when,

" Oy Ali, your voice is so annoying " , says Ardi

" Yes you are, maybe you are with with Ina Haha ", says Pita

Oh wait, who's ina? strange voice? Oh, it can't be, my pray were granted?

" Ina, come here, I'll introduce you with someone who has the same strange voice as you" Ardi

" What are you talking about, I'am not as weird as your thinking haha" Ina

" Just come here, here he is Ali, now each of you can know each other ahaha " Ardi

Oh god, Praise be with you. I force myself to talk and this,  I can't say more, that, You, God, the best. In the name of You, thanks God.

"Oh, umm, Hello, my name's Ali, .."

" Oh yes, I know you, you have a weird voice"

" O ya, so do you!"

" Haha hello my name is Ina, nice to meet you"

" Oh hi, good to know you, strange voice"

Our laugh has vibrate the classroom, and maybe started to draw the beginning of rainbow love.

Oh, your name is Ina.

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Shadow of Me

Getting closer.

Something that should be thrown away, its getting closer now. Why? because there was plenty time to be wasted. As we know, every-on-of-us, has our nightmare and terrible-worrying. I felt, a couple weeks ago, something that worrying me so much has appear again, it was an expertise. I feel i don't have any expertise now. But, it was okay, it's just about the 'time-zone'.

Shadow will always chase us, and we can't deny it unless there was no light source or the light is perfectly perpendicular to us, from above. I want to say that, everyone has their own problem that always chase us like the shadow, say 'shadow of me'. If we think too much about it, we will afraid because the shadow will never left us. But, if we don't concern it too much, maybe we will forget about the appearance of our shadow, but remember, it isn't disappear. On the other hand, if we face it properly, it would be gone. We getting closer to the light source, the shadow will fly away. Or, if we alone in the darkness, the shadow will be shy.

In my terms, The light source is a something when we getting closer to our Creator. The darkness, if we focus on our life and ignore our surrounding. So, in short, to face the shadow is face it properly using your focus in solve it and left all the result to our Creator.

The appearance of our shadow, shouldn't be worried too much. However, face it is a must. But, left it forever is impossible. Let the shadow became our best friend in this enjoyable life.